I'm just having one of those nights.You know, those nights. In my twenty years on this Earth I haven't had the misfortune of losing many people and certainly not any members of my immediate family, though we've had some close calls.
Yet, not everyone who has come in and touched my life is physically here anymore. And tonight was just one of those nights where I happened to think about those who are not around anymore. I have those occasionally.
And somehow, no matter how long it's been there are those occasional crushing moments. The ones where it all hits you. It's not that you forgot necessarily, but it wasn't in the forefront of your mind, not the highest priority on your everday list of things to think about. But when the realization hits you, it hits you like a ton of bricks.
I'm not going to write about them here because I could not possibly do them the justice they deserve (and they deserve every praise that I could possibly give them). But I will say that it is such an odd thing to keep carrying on when they can not.
I think these nights happen to me so that I don't forget to remember them. So, tonight I think a little reverence and remembrance is due. Not because these people were saints or the like. But simply because they were and I would very much like them to continue to be.
