I can't sleep. i should warn you that punctuation and spelling may suck in this post because i am attempting to do this from my phone and i havent the patience to try and capitalize letters. i feel so wired right now; hyperaware of people talking and moving all around me. i ought to be sleeping. or i ought to be working. instead i am lying here in bed alone with my thoughts.
today was a good day. most of my work that needed to get done got done and i even got some good news to boot. ive been thinking about where i've been at this time in the last few years. i was terrified and anxious to prove myself. i was stressed out of my mind. i was heartbroken and homesick. i wonder what this year will bring. maybe its because i am in an odd state of mind right now but i feel strangely hopefulthat all is not lost. and i cant help but want to hold onto that hope and run with it.
for once i am hopeful that it will truly be ok.
